Allow me to first clarify and do excuse me for posting such an emo blog all of a sudden, perhaps the novel "One Day" by David Nicholls had something to do bout it...
It has been a while since I last blogged. Well, after spending so much time at work, I would rather goes straight to bed once I got home. Sometimes, I even feel like not showering and just dive underneath the blankets and snore away (it was just a thought, I still showers first). As for now, I just want to write and try to pen down my thoughts and feelings. Well, try.
Let's start with what I last written, the christmas blog. Yeah, I was alone throughout Xmas, Birthday and New Year. My family went for a vacation in Europe. Can you believe it, they went on to Europe without me? Sigh, as sour as it sounds, I was also glad to have some time alone. I don't have to travel down to Singapore and at the same time, I don't have to meet any one. Is not much of I don't want to see them at all, but some times I just need some time of my own. You know, just some quiet moment. I don't know much bout you guys out there, but I think personal time is quite important. Maybe just because I am a big loner? Oh well. I do have E to spend my birthday with though! Which leads to the second thing that I want to share about, my birthday.
My birthday was quite interesting and far from what I expect it to be, well from what I can recall now. E came up to KL the night before my birthday so that we can travel up to Penang together the next day. The drive was great and I was happy to be on a road trip with him again. We used to travel around NZ together so much. Though the scenery is bit different this time, but it definitely brings out the sweet memories that we shared before. Not to mention creating more of those sweet memories at the same time =) However, we did quarrel a before the nice dinner that he planned out for me. Quite an emotional roller coster ride. heh, that's us for you. I guess being with him for so long now, makes me realized that we will always have our differences. The key to a really good relationships is how we deal with our differences. Mind you, I am quite quick to anger and when I do blow up, is not such a pleasant scene. But E, on the other hand, is a lot more patient.
Moving on, the CNY. I only applied for 4 days off for this festive season. I suppose I can take more, but being the new kid in the office, I hold back a bit. I regretted it. Thinking back now, I spend so much time at work that I hardly able to catch up with my families and friends properly. I could blame it all on the workaholic genes, but I guess it also voice back down to how I manage my time. When I look at the rest of my friends, I do envy them for having such good pay and lesser working hours. What can I say, I chose this industry. On a bright side, I did had a good 4 days off with my family. We had reunion dinner with my big Aunty from dad's side. Then movie and karaoke session on 1st day of CNY with mom n dad. Second day of CNY was spend at grandpa house and also hanging out with my dear cousins. I guess, family is one of the things that we should be valuing above all else. But what do we so often found ourselves regretting over the wrong choices that we picked over it? Any one would like share their thoughts on this?
As for now, there is a change in management and I find myself working under two boss at the same time. With that, the work that comes in is doubled and I do find myself grasping for air some times. Should I quit? The 11 hours that I checked in every single day doesn't seems to be enough and I often finds myself piling more and more work every day. Sigh.
