trust.faith.believe.

How can one still trust in others when his/her feelings been betrayed?

How can one still have faith in other when her hope been ruined?

How can one still believe when her dreams had been shattered?

There are just so much unspoken anger, disappointment within me. I had been trying really hard to cover them, forget about them and moved on, but is getting so much harder day by day. I need to get them out, somehow. Not with my own will, I can never do it all by myself, I need something more ingenious and powerful...

Answer to all is God.

Just another quiet time =)

It was late in the evening, the sun has just set a moment ago and the sky was going to get dark soon. I was waiting for my mom to pick me up and head home together.

I was there sitting in my small, little silver Hyundai Atoz. Both of my legs resting on the passenger seat, my right arm on the sterling wheal while my left arm resting on the shoulder of the driver seat. I was watching a live soccer match on a school's field ahead of me. With the radio was playing all my favourite jazz pop, as my background music,I was really enjoying that moment. Most importantly, I felt God's presences too.

Thought this may sound a bit ridiculous to some of you out there: how can one know that God is there? But the fact is that He is just right next to us all this while, you just need to slow down your pace in life to really try to seek Him... And when you found him, I can guarantee you that you will find the joy and peace in Him; that nothing in this world can ever give to you.

A gift from me beloved =)

love it <3

"Thank you Jie Jie"

21 years ago on the 27th December 1988, a baby girl was born... and she is ME! =D haha.

Finally is my turn to turn 21. Most of my friends took this very seriously and had a blast on their 21st. Honestly, I am not particular excited to celebrate it, well, not in the pubs or with clubbing and alcohols. Oh! Please don't misunderstood me, I am not all against clubbing or pubs; I enjoy them very much with the company of a few good friends =D Just that I would really like to do something that is memorable to my own understanding.

As compare to the previous years, I must say that this year birthday celebration was rather peaceful and quiet. Instead of inviting friends over for a big celebration, I did not hold any parties at all. So is just me and my family =)

Apart from that, I would also like to uphold this day to God. Without him, I will not be born into this world. Hence, I would like to use this day to bless other with all that I can. I've got this idea randomly few months back; Instead of me receiving gifts on my birthday, I would like to give gifts to others. The "others" that I have in mind, is in the orphanage.

Imagine this, if there is a homeless child that share the same birth date with you, what will he/she do for her birthday? Will they be receiving any gifts? Are they going to be all excited like you did, or will they be worrying how are they going to get their next meal? Will they have any family members that would celebrate it with them or will they be wondering around looking for their parent who may or may not have abandon them? Having the thought of it, I can’t help but to realized that I am very blessed by God. I have a home, a family that I can love and who will love me no matter what happen. I have friends, good friends that will take good care of me in times of trouble or to share my happiness. I am very grateful for what I’ve got now =)

Mom said that instead of giving them hard cash, we could do a bit more by helping them to buy the things that they need. For instance, rice, cooking oil, canned food, biscuits, some sweets (they are little kids after all), soups, shampoo, toothpaste… and much more daily needs. I’ve got them some stationary too, school gonna start soon. So I guess, it will be nice to get some for them, not to mention some new pencil case or school bags that could replace the broken ones.

So what do I get in return? Is joy. I just can't explain how warm my heart felt when one of the little girl said this to me, "Thank you, JieJie". It is the best birthday gift I ever received so far, thank you too =)

Please allow me to end this blog with a prayer...

Dear God,

I just wants to uphold all those little hearts to your care. I pray that despite all the tough obstacle that is lying ahead of them; they will still be able seek you, trust you and rely on you that you will care of them in every aspect of their life. For you are the Alpha and the omega and also our beloved heavenly Father. There is no one else who will loves us more than you do. Amen.

What would that be like to have Christ within?

What would that be like to have Christ within?

To have my voice, but him speaking.
My steps, but Christ leading.
My heart, but his love beating
in me, through me, with me.
What's it like to have Christ on the inside?

To tap his strength when mine expires
or feel the force of heaven's fires
raging, purging wrong desires.
Could Christ become my self entire?

So much him, so little me
That in my eyes it's him they see.
What's it like to a Mary be?
No longer I, but Christ in me.

by Max Lucado
From Next Door Savior

I rather not...

I rather not go online, to not see that you are not online again...

I rather not check my emails, to not see you have yet to reply me...

I rather not check my phone, to not see no new text from you...

I rather not wait, to not see you not coming again...

I rather not care, to not see my heart was not care for by you...

I rather not hope, to not see my hope crushed by your absence in my life...

Family Holiday: part 1

Date: 29th November

Location: Malaysia/ Taiwan

Taiwan is my heaven of shopping =D The last time I came with my mom, I went back with a bag of clothes that could filled up another new wardrobe! hehe.

Our flight landed Taiwan at about 6:30pm. The flight was pretty relaxing as compare to my trip back from NZ, it only took us about 4 hours. We then took a bus to Taipei Main Station, which took another hour to reach the city center. Right opposite the hotel that we were staying, there is this stall that sells smelly tofu. I was really intoxicated by the smell of those tofu, I love smelly tofu! As soon as we left our luggage in the rooms, quickly, we head over to have our dinner there.. Oh man, it was awesome!!!

Since mom and dad were feeling pretty tired after dinner, we just call it a night.

1st time tried the mee sua in Taiwan, it tasted real good! =D

Date: 30th November
Location: Taiwan

Nothing much was done today. Dad and bro went over to Gao Xiong to check out some machines, while me and Max followed mom to the office in the morning. We then head over to Underground mall to shop ;) Spent quite a bit there. hehe

Date: 1st December
Location: Taiwan

The next day, while mom and dad went out to settle some stuff in the office, we head out for some shopping and sight seeing ourselves. We had a really filling breakfast at a near by restaurant and head out for more shopping =)

This time, we went over to Si Men Ding. One of the hot spot for shopping in Taipei. Honestly, I find the merchandise over there a bit more expensive than other places. Though the quality and the fashion style is a bit more stylish. Plus, since we went over to early in the morning, most of the shops were not opened yet. Kinda bored and the crowd was small too.

We also visited one of the oldest building around that area, known as The Red House Theater.
We then walked over to CKS memorial hall.At about 2ish, we head back to Si Men Ding again. This time, by MRT. Is too TIRING to walk again >.<

At night, we went over to Shi Lin night market for another walk. Food there was awesome too! I fall in love with their coffin bread! lol, they did not serve it with a coffin, just the name ;)Then, more shopping after that =D