Wrap up

This may be my last post here at blogger. Time to wrap it up and also for the year of 2013 =) For now, is waiting for the arrival of 2014, and also more exciting years to come!

To be honest

To be honest, I didn't want to let go of his hand for a good 3 seconds just now. It does felt good to have some one who wants to hold you as his significant other half. However, he is not the one :(

Playing with long shuttle =)

Moving soon!

I've been playing with the ideas on changing from blogspot to another blogging website for a while. The idea originated a few years ago, from the changing trend of people blogging at blogspot to other blog website like tumblr and wordpress. Back then, all that I really need is a platform to bring my voice out to the public, yet knowing that only a handful of people will actually read my blog. Contradicting much? I know, so I didn't bother to make any changes either. Well, is not like I need lots of clicks to make up for an advertisement quota or I need a lot of people to know. 

Most of the things I will be blogging about are my personal thoughts, thoughts that I am keeping to myself. Thoughts that I think is right to myself and yet not wish to impose to others, or a place to channel my anger (most of the time), or events that had happened and I need to write them down because I'm afraid of losing them, or maybe the things I just feel like writing. I'm not a good writer with all my silly grammatically mistake all over the place. I remember letting E to mark my essays all the time back in Uni (he is really good in his words and writing skills), he would always returned my essays with red markings covering almost whole of the page. Haha. 

Now, 5 years have pass since I started this blog. It has covers a lot of chapters in my life. For the new year, I want to start a new blog fresh. Hence, I think now is the right time to close this book and start on a new one soon =) 

Three (3) things

There are three things that I want to share today.

Today, a friend shared one of the key lesson she learned in life with me. 
It goes like this, with reference to the picture below, if you are asked to place a dot in the triangle that represents where you are at the moment, where will you put it?

For her case, she was told bout this triangle in a time when she was most distanced from her family. It was a terrible time and things didn't go well with her family. Not only so, there were only so little time left for herself. This message came to her at the right time, and it enlightened her that, changes needed to be made, relationships to amend. She took the message seriously and work on herself and the relationships with her family. Things were then changed for the better, it is a good ending for her =) Till now, this triangle is one of the key lesson in life that she hold on dearly. It helped her to keep check with all the relationships around her and make sure that she is not placing too much on one end and neglected the rest.

So that makes me wonder, what about myself? I think at the moment, my dot will be placed slightly towards self and family, though I am meeting up with friends at least once a week. I can not stay at home for far too long. I would be getting restless if I stay home for more than 2 days. Itchy butt I got, my mom once told me.

What about you? How are you balancing your family, friends and time for yourself?

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Friends with benefit or temporary boyfriend? 
Since my birthday is coming, a friend offered to celebrate with me and he even asked me if I wanted any birthday present. Wow, sounds like a good guy right? Yeah, he is, unfortunately, he is attached. That makes me wonder, is this normal? Am I really the only overly jealous girlfriend that stops my bf from building any relationship with the opposite sex. By the way, I don't think so, I never stops him. However I do want him to keep me accountable... make sense, no? ANY WAY, back to the story, I kindly rejected him that I don't need any present, just a simple dinner and a nice drink after will do. Then he came and offer me something really crazy! He says he can be my bf for the day. HUH?! I was like, are you sure your gf will be happy bout this? And he replied, yes. HUH?!!! Right... what has the world become?! (maybe he lied bout the gf agreeing to this). The conversation went on with me asking more question bout it (I still cannot believe it) and then friends with benefit came into the picture. *gasp* I might have heard stories like this happening on other people, but never once I've ever imagined it happening to me. Trust me, just make sure your heart is not easily shaken and anchor to the Lord, then is really not that hard to turn thosppe temptations down. 

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Have you ever heard of a dog's heart beat?
I was placing my hand on my dog's chest just now and I tried to feel her heart beat. It was not easy to spot the heart beat at first. You need to make sure that it is lying down, then slide your hand towards the left side of the chest. If it slightly tilted its body up front a bit, it will be difficult for you to feel it. So you need to make sure that it is lying down on it left side, I think the heart sort of comes nearly to the skin when it does that, then slowly but surely you will feel it. It was just amazing to feel another heart beats, as it represents life. Life that you and me cannot give, it is so precious. The same goes with yours, be grateful and never take life for granted.

Thankful

I was looking through my photo albums on Facebook, there was this sudden feeling of being blessed emerged. I'm really thankful for all the wonderful blessings in my life. I've got to travel so much, and able to meet so many amazing, beautiful people in life. What else can I ask for? Nothing :)

Escape Goat.

Maybe to a certain extent, it is true that
he was pushing his responsibility to
other people. But under who's influence? I
think is the person who introduced the job
to him, refusing to admit that she made
a wrong recommendation to the company.
It was convenient for them, as I was there
so eager to help and available for them
to be use to as an escape goat.

Then again, the whole issue will not be
that complicated if there isn't a 3rd person
who claim to have an eye for character (
actually the person who has the worst
character in the company) to make a
irresponsible complain against him.

Also, not to forget the boss who is so
easily influence by all the wrong people, the
one who is hopeless in assigning task to ppl,
and also the one who made such a reckless
judgement without really understanding the
issue.

At the end of the day, I really felt like me
and him, is just another two puppet who had
fallen into the company's political traps.

Time for a drink mate, and I wish you all
the best in your future venture.
Is a good thing that you are leaving!

beer clanks*

City of the lion

So I'm back to the city of lion. Though the schedule aren't that tight this time, I'm spending the night in the hotel tonight. My boss is happily wondering on orchard road now. Maybe tomorrow night, but ooh well. I'm happy snuggling underneath the duvet and watch my new favorite movie, the vow. Kinda wrong movie to watch in the wrong city, emo emo emo time :p

New York, The big Apple baby! =D

less than a month! 

It’s the Marine, Sailor, Soldier and Airmen

It’s the Marine, Sailor, Soldier and Airmen not the reporter
Who has given us the Freedom of the Press.
It’s the Marine, Sailor, Soldier and Airmen not the poet,
Who has given us the Freedom of Speech.
It’s the Marine, Sailor, Soldier and Airmen not the politicians
That ensures our right to Life, Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness.
It’s the Marine, Sailor, Soldier and Airmen who salutes the flag,
Who serves beneath the flag,
And whose coffin is draped by the flag.

Reference: http://www.taylormorris.org/

God Never Blinks: Lesson 4

Lesson 4: Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

What I learned is that, some times, people often take themselves too seriously. They want to achieve this and that, sacrificing their time and health, and the end of the day? They will be all worn out, unable to take a step further and feeling empty inside instead of being satisfied with their achievement.

So are you one of them? Are you beating yourself up for the unreasonable high expectation and pressure that you have been giving yourself? Or that hope and dreams that you think others had put onto you? Well, good news! Now is the time to put them down and not worry too much on it =)

Go on, jump out into the rain and dances your heart out.
Put on that lovely dress that you have been keeping for special moments
Skip your way down the hallway like a kid
Wear different color of socks or better still, if you are a guy, get one of those silly cartoon tie
( I think guys with those guys have a good sense of humor =p)
Start a food fight!

haha, no matter what it is, make sure that, you are enjoying life as it while working your way towards your dreams.

Freedom from human rules

A leader in church went for a short trip with an opposite gender member in the church. No one know of it, until they have came back together. They were no married of course, hence many critics was poured unto them. Regardless of any sexual sin was ever committed, the judgment was placed.

This happened long ago, and I was shocked to hear bout the details now. Because I knew them, and I gave them the benefit of the doubt. Since the leader was strong in his stand when other couple were getting too close physically, I thought they will not be easily tempted. However, I am in no position to judge either, I am a sinner too. Still, I'm really annoyed at the fact that this leader was out there judging people around me before, I'm pretty sure he had something to say bout me too..

Today scripture speak of Freedom from human rules 2 colossians 1:16~23, which answers this scenario perfectly. No, I'm not saying that this leader should be judged and punish. No one in this world is qualified but God himself. Instead, this passage gives us a good guideline on how to face them and that how we can learn not to be like them or else, we will be facing the same treatment like they will be facing.. I do pray hard I don't and won't be like this.

Brother and sister in Christ, please correct me of I'm wrong. Slap me if you ever need to. I'll be greatful to you later.

One of my favorite shot

A reminder

A reminder for the extra weight left need to be shed. 

New toy!

My new toy! This time, it really burns my pocket..

Got this new baby for bout 1.7k, the camera pouch comes free btw. 

Then I add on the filter lens for another 250. 

Never in my life have I invest so much on a camera. 

Oh well, at least now I can go around with a good camera 

and capture some of those really precious memory and beautiful scene around me. 

Say "cheese"! SNAP*

 =)

acting cute =p

Catch up with my favorite girl friend

God never blinks: Lesson 3

This post took me a while to write, simply because, this is one of the greatest lesson that I need to learn. I spend nearly a week drafting and rewriting this post. Though it might still seems bit disorientated, I hope you get what I want to say. 

Lesson 3: Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. 

Have you ever had some one in your life that, had hurt you so deeply that, you would tremble in anger whenever you think about them? Or the person who has wrong you despite all the kindness that you have shown onto them? Some one who claims to love you, yet was also the person who had hurt you the most?

For each scenario mentioned above, I have. Up till now,  whenever I thought of them, it still hurts me and haunts me. Yes, I know that all these are not healthy for our soul and a friend once told me, these bitter memories and feelings will only eat you up from within. So here's where this lesson comes into the picture.

This chapter teaches us that, by helping and freeing the other party, only then we can free ourselves and find peace. But one may ask, how do you get to that place of forgiveness and love? After all that they had done, seriously, like how?

"It's pure grace for some, hard work for other."

For those who needs more, and as a believer of Christ, this would help

Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you. 

Ephesians 4:31-32 NIV

I believe that "resentment" is one of the biggest obstacle in forgiving others. However, to overcome it, we need to know that deep resentment leads only to futility and unhappiness, it keeps us away from the sunlight of the spirit. So why should we hold onto all the unhappiness in life, keep ourself in the dark, while we can be free, living with beautiful smiles on our faces, and enjoying our time with love and grace from God.  

So to do so, it suggest us to pray for the thing or person that we resent.

"Ask for their health, prosperity, their happiness, and we will be free. do it every day for two week and you will find that the bitterness, hatred and resentment that you once felt will be turned into compassionate understanding and love.."

So are you ready to take that big step?

Reference: Regina B. (2010). God Never Blinks: 50 lessons for life's  little detours. 

New York: Grand Central Publishing.

God Never Blinks: Lesson 2

Lesson 2: When in doubt, just take the next right step.

I find this profoundly true. Many of us are desperately trying to figure out what course to study after high school, what job are we suppose to get, are we going to make ends meet, should we go out with that person, should we settle down, where should we do it, how are we going to pull it through with the long distance, will his/her parent like me, what if I got fired... etc Too often, we focus on the problem so much that, we won't dare to make a step.

ACTUALLY, all we need to do is to take the next right step.

Take a course catalogue if you don't know what to study,
submit the CV any way and see what comes back (if God wills it, He will leave a door open),
take a financial planner class or stop using unnecessary money to make ends meet,
talk it out with the person or those around you if you are ready for a relationship (or better still talk to your pastor & parent about settling down),
be yourself in front of others and relax (the more nervous you are when meeting the in-law, the more likely you are going to screw it up. so might as well, take a deep breath and enjoy the moment. remember the first lesson "get to"),
do your best in work, even if you got fired, move on. (who knows you might get a better offer later).

"So what's you next right step? Whatever it is, take it" Regina Brett

Reference: Regina B. (2010). God Never Blinks: 50 lessons for life's  little detours. 

New York: Grand Central Publishing.

因为，在珍惜那过程中，我们已得到那完美的结果了。

刚刚看完“被偷走的五年”，真的很伤感。
突然也领悟到，虽然那分爱情没有好结果，

但它的美，它的那份真爱，是不可取代的。

人生嘛，是不可能常如我们所愿。

但只须学习珍惜，那是否有结果都已不重要了。

因为，在珍惜那过程中，我们已得到那完美的结果了。